~August Update~

I lost waaaay too much weight last month. I'm too skinny. It's kinda gross. I need to gain a little. I don't know how to do it...I'm paranoid about getting fat again. It's hard. I was afraid that I would be too extreme in this mission and I was right. I have a doctors appt. Wed and I'll find out how much I need to gain, but I'm thinking I'm like 11 pounds underweight now. Yuck.

July Update

July has been just as crazy as June. I've been doing the eliptical at night but cut down some. I went to the dr. at the begining of July and was 1 pound underweight. I kind of range from about 115-118 depending on what time of the month it is and am trying really hard to get back up to about 120, but doing it with muscle and not candy bars. I'm sure when wedding season dies down it'll be a little easier to do. Tarren helped me pick out my wedding dress for our wedding pictures and I need the name of a good seamstress. The smallest size they made the dress in was a 2, but I need some places taken in a few inches. It is so wierd because a year ago I was wearing sweats all the time to avoid size 18 jeans. I never thought I'd be able to wear my high school clothes again, but when I tried on all the jeans my mom saved for me...they were too big! Oh well because they styles were not anything I would wear now. But that does stink that we keep having to buy new clothes because I can't seem to find a steady size. I'm dreading winter because all my winter clothes are Mediums and Larges and right now XS is kinda baggy. It's okay because I plan on selling all my clothes on ebay so I can buy some fun stuff. I'm learning that when I buy cheaper clothing it rips or fades quickly. When I spend the money on a nice piece of clothing it feels sturdier and lasts longer. I think my new goal is quality clothing and not quantity...so if you see me in the same 10 outfits for a while you'll know why ;)

~ 2 crazy kiddos + wedding season = skinny mommy~

Well, I think I have a small confession. I think I've become somewhat addicted to exercising. I can't help it! After the kiddos are in bed for the night I find myself craving the elliptical trainer. I have managed to gain a couple pounds back and now my weight fluctuates between 118-122 depending on what time of the month is. I feel really energetic and I sleep better at night. I have been running around like crazy doing weddings on the weekends and shoots in the evenings...not to mention getting caught up on the PJ's bookwork. I try really hard not to schedule anything for the mornings or afternoons because that is my time with the kiddos. We have been having a blast this summer. I will have to post our wet n wild adventure on my other blog soon. I'm in Utah right now shooting a wedding. When I get home I'll be sure to update so ya'll can see how big my munchkins are getting!

Update

Well....I kind of neglected my blog for a while. I just got super crazy busy with pictures and didn't think about it. To be honest, in the past 5 days I have eaten 2 cartons of fat free ice cream by myself. I also have worked out for a minimum of 1 hour every single day. I bought new jeans the other day and they ended up being a size 0. Yeah strange I know. I was way smaller in high school and I think I wore a 3 then. I think it's that brand of jeans or something. I also had to buy new dress pants for wedding season (it's way too hard to shoot weddings and get in all those funky angled positions in a dress) I found some cute pants and they were a size 2. I want to stay this size, but I want my tummy thighs and arms to tone up a bit. My arms don't bother me much, but my tummy and thighs do. I have a lot of extra skin from having Garrett (it wasn't bad after Savannah) and losing weight. The stretch marks are really bad. They are loose and saggy and look like big wrinkly scars. I don't know if there is a surgery for my legs, but I am thinking about a tummy tuck. When I had Garrett my muscles seperated in my stomach and the dr. said that's the only way to fix it. It's super gross and scary but I would consider it. I don't know. I also think after every mommy is done having kids they should be granted a free boob job! Yep I said it. I don't think that one will ever happen because there is nothing really wrong with them just could be better ;). Anyway...I will keep working out and posting once in a while but I'm slammed with pics right now and get a little forgetful.

Back from AZ and ready to roar Day 1

Breakfast: 1 100 calories kudos m&m bar

Lunch: lettuce, cheese and ham with a little ranch dressing

Snack: 1 1/2 steak fingers

Dinner: turkey, olives, pickles and a little mayo

Snack: 1 100 calories kudos m&m bar

Snack: 6 pb saltines

Exercise: ran 1 mile, did 45 minutes of weights and 10 minutes on the leg magic machine

Thoughts: During my break from writing this down I thought I would gain a little weight. I actually ended up losing 5 pounds! I am now 5 pounds under goal so now my goal is to gain 5 pounds and tone up. Wish me luck!


Here's a few pics. We'll call them the Pre After, but Post before...maybe mid?

Starting Again

I took a short break for the dieting thing. It was so strange not to worry about calories or fat. The crazy thing is that during my break I lost 2 pounds! I am going to Phoenix tomorrow and when I get back I'll start my work out program again.

~Day 38~

I DID IT!!!! I lost my last pound!!! I'm now at goal. I am going to concentrate on losing inches and firming up those flabby parts.


Breakfast: 1/2 cup cottage cheese and strawberry yogurt

Lunch: 1 1/2 cheese enchiladas and a few bites of spanish rice....a handful of chips with fattening sour cream salsa dip

Dinner: 4 oz strip steak, 1 tablespoon mashed potatoes....only ate half of them, salad with thousand island dressing

Snack: I tasted the fondant icing I made yesterday...good, but very very sweet. I'm gonna make a cake tomorrow and put it on it...pretty!